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Wow....and i thought i had weight problems. Reading up on some the previous posts, my problems are insignificant. I also have a eating disorder. I have it because of choice rather than the other way around. Reason is, i want to gain weight. But i can't. I am a naturally skinny slim guy (inherited from dad) and with a really high metabolism. So no matter how much i want to gain more weight, i will pretty much stay the same. lol, at least i have muscles. -_-;

I also have a eating disorder. I have it because of choice rather than the other way around. Reason is, i want to gain weight.

are you hearing what your saying? i mean seriously :|

I also have a eating disorder. I have it because of choice rather than the other way around. Reason is, i want to gain weight.

are you hearing what your saying? i mean seriously :|

i Qan't taQe it anymore, not today...

to be honest I felt the same in a way.

Because I wanted to be anorexic in way, I wanted people to notice (me). I wanted them to notice I'm thin. I wanted the attention. I wanted people to tell me to stop.

But when they did I felt uncomfortable. And went on.

I think one of the many many many reasons was I wanted attention from one special guy.

By now I gained weight. I know it looks better then when I was so thin. But it still feels weird, one second I feel to thin, the other I feel fat.

You know in your head that it's wrong what you're doing but sort of can't help it. That's what it was for me.

When I stepped on the weighing machine in the morning and saw I weight as much as yesterday or like 100gramm more my mood got so bad. The day was practically over and forced me to be more strict. And when I weighed less it didn't make me happy but made me feel relieved. Like a success that is expected of you.

I have a friend and I can't really tell if she has an eating disorder. I really think so considering the fact that she used to be healthier. She was always a naturally thin person but just last year, on the first day of school, she stopped looking so good. Her skin became even paler(she is pale anyways) and you could see the bone through her skin. When we talk she says she looooves to eat and when I went to her house she seemed normal, but I know she has been to the hospital a few times. Someone told me at a dance a boy told her that he didn't like her and that he would never like her and that she was the most annoying girl in the school, so everyone thinks that is when it triggered this. I just kind of get scared because she has barely made any improvements. Barely.

But at scary as it is stuff like this is always happening, one of my teachers a few years ago said a lot of her friends have eating disorders.

I have a friend and I can't really tell if she has an eating disorder. I really think so considering the fact that she used to be healthier. She was always a naturally thin person but just last year, on the first day of school, she stopped looking so good. Her skin became even paler(she is pale anyways) and you could see the bone through her skin. When we talk she says she looooves to eat and when I went to her house she seemed normal, but I know she has been to the hospital a few times. Someone told me at a dance a boy told her that he didn't like her and that he would never like her and that she was the most annoying girl in the school, so everyone thinks that is when it triggered this. I just kind of get scared because she has barely made any improvements. Barely.

But at scary as it is stuff like this is always happening, one of my teachers a few years ago said a lot of her friends have eating disorders.

Yes it's scary, because I remember sitting behind her and she was wearing a shirt that exposed a little back and you could see a lot of bones.

I have a friend and I can't really tell if she has an eating disorder. I really think so considering the fact that she used to be healthier. She was always a naturally thin person but just last year, on the first day of school, she stopped looking so good. Her skin became even paler(she is pale anyways) and you could see the bone through her skin. When we talk she says she looooves to eat and when I went to her house she seemed normal, but I know she has been to the hospital a few times. Someone told me at a dance a boy told her that he didn't like her and that he would never like her and that she was the most annoying girl in the school, so everyone thinks that is when it triggered this. I just kind of get scared because she has barely made any improvements. Barely.

But at scary as it is stuff like this is always happening, one of my teachers a few years ago said a lot of her friends have eating disorders.

I'm not spelling out an entire sob story, or whatever, but seriously, eating disorders suck. Aha. I had "food issues" - I was never diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia, and have since gotten better and can eat normally, and have zero (or like, very few) body image problems, so I don't want to say I had one - a couple years ago. My little sister is taller, thinner...and my parents pointed it out. A lot. I wasn't allowed to eat junk food, and they started signing me up for sports and anything where I would get exercise. Thing is, I wasn't at all fat. I'm five foot three (I was then, too), and weight just under one-hundred and fifteen pounds. But because of how they looked at me, and talked to me, I felt huge. Like a whale. So I'd stop eating, and if I did eat, I'd make myself throw up. Thankfully, my best friend, and my now ex-boyfriend helped get me back on the right track. Honestly, bones are NOT attractive. There's nothing attractive about a girl with no boobs and no hips or butt or thighs. My "girl-crushes" are all on girls with breasts and butts. And in the long run, most men agree. Not all. But most. That's all I have to say on this subject.

Well. Sort of. -,- But if I said anymore, I'd feel preachy. And stuff.

I hate myself so much lately I've decided to "get better" and started to eat, now after gaining some weight back I feel fat, but that's not the problem- people point at me and saying things like: "can you believe she's 17? she looks 14 year old to me." I hate it soooo much, I'm too fat for myself and not fat enough for everybody else- I'm going to give up on the idea of eating, at least I'm going to be happy with myself

don't hime....no one likes itself!!!do you think that I like the shape of my body?I feel fat too but I don't care because I know that what's outside doesn't count that much as what is inside and I'm scared to death from bulimia and aneroxia...just the thought I can get so thin makes me change my mind...from all I read in this thread you have definitely aneroxia you like it or not-you should start looking the positive things about you and maybe get some help from someone specialised in this subject...it can be very dangerous

thanks midnight lady, you're right. I think I'm on the right track because I eat, I force myself to eat even when I don't feel hunger so I can look "normal" again. it's a hard thing to do- the proccess of eating is maybe as scary as anorexia itself for me that one inccident almost broke all of my power of will...winter is over the corner and it's the best season to gain weight(most successful at least...) I hope I'm the only one who's (still) having these issues...people, please learn from my mistakes and don't make yourself look/sound like a pathetic loser

and you're not wrong...you're in the right path and winter is truly the best season to gain weight-but just don't try to loose it in the summer.I really hope you'll do the best from this situation

...people, please learn from my mistakes and don't make yourself look/sound like a pathetic loser

there, there

but sweety, really ... don't you think you put to much presure on yourself? "i force myself to eat" ; "I think i'm fat". I think your in conflict w/ yourself & maybe you should see somebody for help, it's great you say you want to get better but you can't just get better on your own. An ED marks you forever & you never get it out of your head. ( & your only 17? tho i though you where older but anyway ... )

I hope you won't understand me wrong now but most of the individuals that live w/ an ED, well it will fallow them as long as they live but it's always a choice, i know that myself.

i hope you will get to fallow your dream, no matter where that takes you.

take care

did you ever had an ED Alexis?

try not to eat too much at one setting or gain quickly, cuz sometimes it can be dangerous.

Himey, take it easy. Don't give too many pressures to yourself.

Eat a little bit more step by step

People said you look old because you get not enough nutrients to grow

which affect your metabolism. It resulting your skin aging and osteoporosis,

your bones will getting weaker deficiently to support your whole body.

Finally you will become a young granny and cause hunchback. That is extremely painful (physically and mentally)

Find a dietician if you still having the problem

ganbade

But when you reach a certain age, u Qan't grow anymore!

Hime, i love your flatty chest and we love you..!

the Ana support group

How's your tummy now? Still maQin' all those noises?