i'm pretty skinny but i always think i'm fat

Wierd. :|

Anyway, i think i have quite few probs with eating, but i hope that with some time i'll realize, that being skinny is not the most important thing. I just wish it would happen soon, cuz it's killing me.

yeah..same with me! I have a tip: just make other goals...think about things you love- go play on instruments or something, for god's sake.

I dont have an eating disorder but i don't think im perfect. <_< Im brazilian so i have a booty and a booty always translates into thighs so I dont like my thighs...too big. I'm sure they arent big because people always tell me I'm skinny. Actually I probably know that they arent big but I know that there isnt anything I can do about me thinking ive got big thighs so basically what I do is accentuate what i like. If I wear darker pants and then a tight shirt I feel more comfortable with myself. If any of you guys think that you have a large stomach then wear a nice rouched shirt and then a pair of white shorts. Dont show off something that you dont like because then youll feel ugly and fat all day. Its actually a fact that pretty much no one is happy with their body, even guys, and they always pick one thing that they dont like and that they think is fatter (or skinnier) than it actually is. Its called body dismorphia disorder and most people have it (I saw it on tyra banks show! ) So if your feeling fat just try and remember that its all in your head. Thats just my advice

Oh. And a lot of people think that I'm anorexic or that i think I'm a fat pig just because I like models and fashion and everything but that really makes me mad. I dont really look at the models and think "oh I wish I looked like that." and I think everyone thinks I do.

PS: all of you girls are very nice a beautiful so I really hope that guys realize that you arent fat (even though it is quite hard) because you have very beautiful personalities

When i was younger i never ever experienced issues of having to lose wieght. In fact i was the skiniest person ever.. In my whole school.. I use to get picked on every single day "skeleton" "tooh pick" and so on. I wa sjust naurally very skinny and was neverr really hungry.

I was about 42 kg when i came to Canada and now i'm 52 and i'm 1.68 so make conclusions.No wonder why North Americas are so fat seriously junk fod is everywhere here and theres pletly of it. I did't even notice when i gained weight just happened fast. It's becouse i never gained weight before so fast so i didn't really recognize it.

Then I got older and looked in my mirror ones and i was like omg i seriously have meat on my body on my legs and belly and butt i'm not a skeleton anymore and i was horrified.

To be honest even though i got picked on a Lot when i was little it never ever really got to me i didn't care that i was skinny i was just annoyed and had hard time finding clothes that didn't hang on me like on a hanger and that was about it .

But for first time in my life i had to deal with having some fat on my body and i didn't want to face it. I want to lose weight like a lot! I don't want to be like i use to be but.. close. I wnat to lose like 5 kgs or as much as i can i guess.

And it's impossible my life is boring and it sux my school sux i sit around front of the comp all day or watch tv and my only joy is eating. I love food.

Cooked meals or just junk food whatever... And that is what made me fat before and i don't want anymore weight. It's crutal for me to lose some. I really have to.

But i cannot live without eatng. I've tried to starve myself and it never works for more then like a day or 2.

Very long time ago i tried to have all fruit-veggie died and It lasted like 2 days and then i ate only a bit f other stuff so i lost about 2 kgs but not for long. Cuz constantly i'm thinking about food even if i'm not hungry.

So since that i've tried to make myself throw up. I thought its great solution since i can eat everything and then just puke it so i don't get fat...I tries With my fingers and a toothbrush <_< Still doesn't work AT ALL.

All it happens i get teary and nothing comes out and it's still horrible.

And i'm too lazy to excersize cuz i never do anything ever.

And you know when is the time when i actually lose wieght is when i'm not home. I remember couple years go i went back to Bulgaria and I ate fine but i was out most of the time so i wasn't bored and i didn't have to eat food to entertain myself so naturally i lost weight and i didn't feel hungry anyways since i had something to do.

But i live here in very shitty small place where theres NOTHING to do it's horrible so all i do is go to school and sit front of the comp and eat. Then bam no wonder I've gained more weight.

Now i rather be only bones and skin iIhave thighs thats the worst and my stomach it's not big or anything but i want it to be like ) that.

The worst thing is being skinny and then gaining weight, cuz if you've been all your life average/curvy and then it's not as bad but once you've been soo skinny (like Vlada was) it's just like i regret letting myself gain weight every single day of my life.

I never had an eating disorder just becouse my organism can't function right without any food and i cannot not eat even if I try to.

My appetite it's like a pig so i really Need to get some diet pills or something that kills ur appetite.

I really really wnat to lose wieght.

I'm obsessed with that.

But why do you want to? It won't make you beautiful, only ruin your hair, nails, skin (skinny girls get "older"/wrikly earlier b/c the skin hasn't any "fat" to reproduce). You won't feel better if you have lost 5 kg, but want to go on with it.

I try now to do some exercises, I don't eat fast food but if I have to entertain myself with eating I eat an apple or stuff, that's not making fat, and I concentrate on doing things with my friends or writing. The weight will never be gone forever, it will always come back again

I can just hope that you'll entertain yourself with doing other things than starving or throwing up... Cause then life isn't anything worth anymore, and that would be sad, wouldn't it? Cause you are wirth living in beauty, not in skeleton.

betty when i read your post i was like wow, that's like me too! cause i was super skinny when i was younger and i always got called skinny bone jones, chopsticks, toothepick, you name it! it annoyed me but once i could see the weight gain, i was like dude i wish i cuold stop eating so flippin much cause even though i hated the name calling, i loved how thin i looked. even though people say it was disgusting how thin i was. but anyways i loved how thin i was and such, but honestly i know that you can exceercise and stuff but really, you get tired of exercising and get lazy. it's hard to keep up with the workout when i have like 42938479837 things to do

seroiusly for my body to be back to normal like thing and slim/slender, i won't probably be completely happy, but i'd feel satisfied.

I will admit that I didn't really notice this thread until today. I understand that this thread could be a place to express some concerns, get stuff off your chest, share past experiences. I could also see a lot of problems arising from a topic such as this. I don't want to shut down the thread, but I would like to ask that you guys follow a few guidelines.

1. Under no circumstances will there be any pro-ana advice given. I'm serious about this. If that happens, I will shut this thread down and warn the people who have chosen to give such advice. I didn't see anything like that, but I just want to make sure it doesn't happen in the future either.

2. Bellazon is not a medical site. As such, I'd like to ask that you NOT ask for medical advice (do I have anorexia? bulimia? am I obese? here are my stats, etc) and that members not give medical advice either. If you think you have a problem, contact your physican. A visit isn't going to hurt you, so it's in your best interest to do so if you think something is wrong.

Here's a website that might be useful to some of you: http://www.bc.edu/bc_org/svp/uhs/eating/eating-homepage.htm Again, if you think some of this sounds like you, contact your doctor, don't try to self-diagnose or treat yourself, and don't try and have BZ members diagnose you.

Thanks for your cooperation.

I was anorexic two years ago I got to 35 kg, and then I went to the clinic. It's a long story, maybe once I'll tell you the whole part.

Now that somehow affected my health and I can't gain weight. And that really REALLY depresses me.

At least you want to... Do you eat regularly? 8I think so, if you want to gain weight you will ) And well... argh I don't know. Where you at the doctor's?

ok, it took me some time but I've read the whole post, Betty, and it's like reading something that I wrote...my life is like that too...living in a small town with nowhere to go or nothing to do just sitting in front of the computer screen or the TV. I used to be skinny too when I was a kid but since age 12 I started to gain weight...(stupid nature rules... <_< ) and now I have nothing to be proud of. good grades, brains, natural beauty(?), been a good person, nothing is importent for me anymore- if I'm "fat" I'm a loser. this is how I see myself... there aren't many people that skinnier than me but I want to be more than that...I want to be skinny "without a question" skinny-skinny, the kind of skinny when you don't have problem areas in your body...just bones, beautiful model/blaerina body. today I got teary eyes all day and I haven't eat half of the day until my mom convinced me to... I can't control myself- I eat and cry couse I'm "not suppose to do that" and when I don't eat I feel like the time isn't moving...I'm fat and it will take me long time to "recover" from it... anyway, I feel bad.

Sahara, I'm 5'7'' and 52 kg also, but all my friends thinks I'm skinny...

If you girls want advices, just search on web about tastefull recipies, with low fat or things like that... And if you enjoy snacks, take celeris! Full of water, celeris are good, but also, you're loosing calories eating them

eating everything that green... it's not really helping couse I'm allready underweight and my body needs that fat... <_<

Ok, but their's many ways to eat, with fat and everything, but good fat, and good food!

you don't understand...I want to be skin and bones- to become like this I need to stop eating couse it's unnatural to have a figure like that...

you don't understand...I want to be skin and bones- to become like this I need to stop eating couse it's unnatural to have a figure like that...

yeah skin and bones is how i wanna be too, which is what i was when i was in like middle school. for me skin and bones worked cause i have hips so if i have no fat or whatever i still look decently curvy

It's so complicated. In one aspect, the media is pushing girls to want to look (and even act like) like super-bimbo-big breasted-and big butted-skanks. On the other end of the spectrum, there is a little inner voice that tells you "I'm fat" whether you are or not... why? I don't know... but most of the girls I have spoken to seriously say they have their "fat" days just as all of them have bad hair" days. I love the look of models; their tight and seemingly flawless skin, height, long and slim limbs, and perfect complection ... but as much as I like it I don't think I would ever get as far as hurting myself to achieve it. If your naturally lke that in a health sort of way then I guess you should be happy and if voluptuous same difference... work with what you've got.

I have too much to work with

I think I do too also, being hispanic I'm torn both ways when it comes to my legs especially (guys will tell me their great, I might think otherwise)... I feel like they are too short or slightly too thick and other times I like them... it's weird

ok, it took me some time but I've read the whole post, Betty, and it's like reading something that I wrote...my life is like that too...living in a small town with nowhere to go or nothing to do just sitting in front of the computer screen or the TV. I used to be skinny too when I was a kid but since age 12 I started to gain weight...(stupid nature rules... <_< ) and now I have nothing to be proud of. good grades, brains, natural beauty(?), been a good person, nothing is importent for me anymore- if I'm "fat" I'm a loser. this is how I see myself... there aren't many people that skinnier than me but I want to be more than that...I want to be skinny "without a question" skinny-skinny, the kind of skinny when you don't have problem areas in your body...just bones, beautiful model/blaerina body. today I got teary eyes all day and I haven't eat half of the day until my mom convinced me to... I can't control myself- I eat and cry couse I'm "not suppose to do that" and when I don't eat I feel like the time isn't moving...I'm fat and it will take me long time to "recover" from it... anyway, I feel bad.

When I read all your posts about you wanting to lose weight and be skinny-skinny it's like omg don't be radicilous and etc.. But in the same time i feel your pain , becouse I Feel the same way. So I dunno for me i think its ok wanting to lose a lot of weight but hearing it from other girls that are already slim and still want to lose weight just want to smack them.

Yeah there aren't many ppl that are skinnier then me either but I ALWAYS look at the few that are and compare myself and the though of the HUGE regret of gaining weight keeps coming back. I just wnat to go back in time when i was 13 and eat proportonally and a lot healthier. God now i wouldn't have to deal with body issues at all.

But anyways like i said i CAN NOT , NOT EAT I can't control it I looove eating and like i said that keeps me "entertained" and like you said if I don't eat i feel like time has stopped too.

But I'm not even gonna try not to eat it's impossible and I'll get these horrible headaches and I feel like shit if i'm home all day and not eat.

So I've decidet to change what I eat. I have a healthy food guide (and I took cooking/nutricion class ) so I have to go grocery shopping soon.

And now if i'm feeling that i want chocolate i'll reach for an apple or graipfruit , btw that is VERY good I've heard if you want to lose wight. And lettice my granmother told me while ago that purple lettice especially is also good for losing weight , just make salad with it and also put like carrot and whatever veggies you wnat and vinegard it's ok and it's good becouse the lettice takes a long time to diagest in ur stomach so when it does you are burning calories and also 100% whole wheat grain bread is good for the same reason + it keeps you full longer (then normal bread (that also turns into sugar) ).

So Sahara you can'not not eat i know that cuz just our organisms can't deal with not having food food , just like a car you don't put gas in it it won't start. So I've decidet to change my eating habits also If ever i eat pasta i'll get the darker one whole wheat and just eat more often but little proportions that are much healthier . Eating more often like 6 times a day in small proportions fastens up your metabolism , and if you don't eat at all it slows it down a LOT so when you start eating normal again that is why you gain weight , becouse you haven eaten before so that's really not helping you much.

Also you can eat all the veggies/fruits in the world you want a day and you can't gain wieght. I read that u worried once becouse u ate an apple before, but hey lets say it has 30 cal (i dunno how many but assuming) and it has NONE fat & carbs/whatever it's natural thing so you can't gain anything.

(Well only like bananas are high in fat/sugar and grapes and corn/patatoes (i think but i'm not sure that's what my mom told me ) in veggies and These are my favorite uugh)

I remember very long time ago I Tried to eat only lettice salad with whatever and ther veggies and fruits.(I ate like 4 salads a day + veggies) Well it didn't last long , lol just like couple of days and the 4th - 5th I didn't stop but I also ate other stuff a bit , and i lost like 2 kg i think so i'll try it again next week or the week after , but it was really hard that's why i gave up.

Extercising i can't do it at home I can't get up from the compiuter not to mention extercise i'm way to lazy and self undisciplined to follow daily rutine extercise.

God i wish i was more of a stubborn person.

PS: Sorry my posts are so long

I think I do too also, being hispanic I'm torn both ways when it comes to my legs especially (guys will tell me their great, I might think otherwise)... I feel like they are too short or slightly too thick and other times I like them... it's weird

yeah my perspective on my body changes a lot. one day i'll be like i like my legs ad the next day i'll be like wow i'm really fat.

honest to say i'm glad that there's a topic on eating disorders where you can talk about your problems and stuff. cuase my friends all say i'm skinny and stuff and if i trey and talk to them about my insecurities, they're all like shut up you're skinny blah blah blah. but here i can relate to people and say how i feel. it's nice

don't mind the lenght at all...your posts help me Betty, the longer the post the better.

decided to cut off the junk food...it's still not healthy to eat only apples and dry chicken but it's better than nothing at all.