Baby, I think that you should talk to a counselor or something. Someone you can talk to about your problems who doesn't judge you. They can support you in your situation and if you let them, I think they can help you get through this. A clinic for people with food disorders is probably not a bad idea either. (Although I'm sure it is not a place most people would like to go.) People who work in places like that would have seen a lot of people with eating disorders come through and would have a better understanding of the circumstances. Therefore, hopefully they would be able to help you more efficiently.