There's an article in the US Weekly with Denise Richards on the cover! Petra's New Heartbreak Days after her TV interview, Nemcova mourns as her lover's body is found On their first anniversary, last May, photographer Simon Atlee, 33, gave Czech model Petra Nemcova a 400-page book of memories filled with notes about her and sweet text messages they'd exchanged. Since December 26, the day she survived the tsunami that killed an estimated 300,000 people and destroyed miles of Africa's coastline, Nemcova, 25, has taken comfort from that book. But she needed it more than ever on March 5, when, after two months of desperate waiting, Nemcova learned that Atlee's body had been found, buried in mud a mile and a half from the Thai bungalow where the couple had vacationed. "She's devastated," her rep, Rob Shuter, tells Us. Nemcova has said, "I lost the person closest to me." Grieving Just days earlier, Nemcova wept as she confided to Diane Sawyer on Primetime Live, broadcast March 9, that the hardest part of her ordeal was "not knowing if Simon is still somewhere and needs help." And while she knew bad news must be coming ("When the days go by, you have to realize he will stay in our hearts all the time forever," she said), a source close to Nemcova says word that Atlee's body had been found still came as a shock. "It made her relive that horrible day, and although a few weeks from now I think she'll be grateful, at the moment she's too full of grief to think about closure." Healing Now that Nemcova is back home in the mining town of Karvina, five hours from Prague, the Czech capital, her father, mother and sister, Olga, a 23-year-old New York University student, have rallied to help her recover. The early therapy for her broken pelvis (six bones were smashed by debris as she clung to a palm tree for almost eight hours) was gentle daily exercise in, ironically, a pool. She's continuing with more physical therapy. But to heal her heart, she looks to her lost love. "I talk to Simon," she told Sawyer. "I write to him. I never used to write a diary, but now I am writing a diary to him." As for the future: "I live day by day." Her father has said Nemcova wants to devote herself to helping young victims of the disaster rather than return to work, but others close to the Victoria's Secret model and Sports Illustrated swimsuit cover girl say she'll eventually return to New York city, where she has lived for the past four years, and to her career. "Modeling is what she knows," a source says. "She loves doing it." Before that, there will be a final farewell: Atlee's funeral this week in London. Not that Nemcova will ever really say goodbye. "There's no day," she said, "that would pass without thinking of it, of him and what happened."