I haven't been active here lately. I don't feel the kind of connection to other people online I used to feel 20 years ago. Social media changed everything and as a hater of social media I have been "struggling" for the last 15 years or so social media has been a thing. I simply hate what the World has become. I even struggled to sign in here. Instead of user name, I was asked my email address. It took a while for me to figure out which email address I have given here. In the end I figured that out by trial and error, but I was nervous about losing access to my account here. Some 5 years ago or so I wanted an answer as to why my life is what it is. I got into personality types (which I considered total BS before) and found out interesting things. This led me to diagnose myself to have mild high-functioning autism (Asperger's) which explains pretty much everything I have experienced in my life (54 years old). I try to do things that are positive to my mental health such as making music. That is quite therapeutic. About 8 years ago I started to learn music theory and it has been an interesting journey. As a Goddess worshipper I worship the sexiest and most beautiful women in the World, but most celebrities of today don't do much for me. I also hate the tattoo culture. 20 years ago tattoos were not a thing (tattoos were rare). Social media has changed what kind of pictures are posted online. Instead of glamorous photoshoots by skilful photographers, we have casual photos taken by photos in whatever spa resort. The World I'd like to live on is fading away and being replaced a World I don't like nearly as much. That's why I am living in the past. Nostalgia is important for me. I am exploring 80's synth-pop, music from the good old World I didn't appreciate enough when I was living and experiencing it. I didn't know future will suck. There are good new things in the World today, but the bad outweighs the good. So that's what I am thinking about...