when i was younger i use to think about death alot. i was scared of going to sleep because i didnt think i would wake up. cuz after death thats it, you arent coming back. so i was pretty paranoid. but after a few years, yes YEARS lol i realized that thinking so much about death and freaking out so much was not really living. I was always so worried that i never had fun. Then all the sudden i was just well shit man if ima die might as well do what i like to do and die doing that lol. Then i just started living my life the way i wanted to, had fun, spent time with my friends and family alot more and now i think that when i die i did what i wanted and had stuff to show for it rather than being depressed and antisocial all the time.