"my love sleeps  besides me - 
in the faint light - I see his manly jaw 
give away - and the mouth of his 
boyhood returns 
with a softness softer 
its sensitiveness that trembling 
in stillness 
his eyes must have look out 
wonderously from the cave of the little 
boy - when the things he did not understand -  
he forgot 
but will he look like this when he is dead 
oh unbearable fact inevitable 
yet sooner would I rather his love die 
than/or him? 
the pain of his longing when he looks  
at another 
like an unfulfilment since the day 
he was born. 
And I in mericless pain 
and with his pain of Longing -  
when he looks at and loves another 
like an unfulfilment of since the day 
he was born -  
we must endure 
I more sadly because I can feel no joy"