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  1. I miss my big sister so much. She committed suicide on March 26, 2019. Worst day of my life. I found her dead two days later. 😢

    Love you Amber Nicole ❤️

    #suicideawareness 

    Suicide: one person dies every 40 seconds

     

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    2. Prettyphile

      Prettyphile

      She's beautiful!

       

      In a way, my father took his life when he refused cancer treatments, so I understand where you are coming from. For a long time, I didn't understand why, and in a way, I felt he was punishing us for not even trying to get help, and it took years for it to finally sink in that it was about his own pain and trauma, and whatever was going on in his head, and not about his family and hurting us, and knowing that despite everything he loves us, just as your sister LOVES you. She was going through something that none of us will ever understand and at the very least her pain and suffering is over, and that with time, your families will as well.

       

      I will never stop loving my father, and 21 years later (my father died June 1st, 1999) my heart still aches when I stop to think about him, but it WILL GET EASIER as time goes on, that I can promise.

       

      You take every moment you can to remember her if even for a second, to smile and laugh at the memories, to remember her face and her voice. Don't shy away from any thoughts or memories good or negative, you're allowed to be angry (just don't act upon the bad ones pls) and take them as a learning lesson so you can grow. (I wish someone would have told me that). You are allowed to feel ANY way you want, and if it ever gets too much, take a moment to do something for yourself..

       

      Maybe try a hot bubble bath, screaming at the top of your lungs, a long good cry, putting on music she loved or laughed at or even hated as a means of letting you vent, or just talk to someone you love. Find an outlet to bring her back into your life! I took on Scrap-booking and made wonderful over the top collages of things my dad loved, as well as pictures of us, and things WE loved.. or pick up a new hobby of doing something that she really enjoyed. My father was super into all things chemistry and science so I dove right into the deep end and started learning everything I could. It made me feel like my dad was with me. 21 years later I'm still learning.

       

      You'll be okay! ❤️

    3. michelabella

      michelabella

      I’m so sorry to hear about your father. 💔my sister refused to get better or to take any proper medication etc and instead decided to take her life. We tried and tried to get her proper help and intervention but it’s easier said than done in many cases. 💔 thank you for the great advice. I’m getting better one day at a time and the worst hell of it all is behind me (I hope and think). 2019 was all a blur and 2020 is so crazy, it’s keeping me distracted as sad as that is. I think talking about her and not keeping it a taboo subject is helping me to heal little by little. You can DM me anytime if you want. I’m an open book. ❤️

    4. Prettyphile

      Prettyphile

      Thank you hun, you as well! :hug:

  2. yes she has got to be there! she just has to. I will be really disappointed if she isn't :(

    and thanks for the mega posts of her VS!!!

  3. no problem!

    and it is Gisele :)

  4. ahh i did not know that thanks! i will have to check it out

  5. lovely set! awww <3

    glad to see ya back!

  6. hehe yeah she is just amazing and gorgeous =] hru?

  7. sounds good to me! id sign it!!1 haha ;)

    it is really getting annoying, and to me forums should be about quality, not quantitiy. im sorry but bz is one big old mess. you cant possibly come here to find pictures. its basically a place to post reposts and bash models/celebs, honestly. lol :/

  8. yes Krissy Taylor her littler sister was also a big model. so sad what happened :(

    SURE thing! its just her videos on youtube are so rare to find :( alot of people have forgotten niki it seems :(

  9. hey girl! I was wondering, if you ever got the chance, could you make a wallpaper of Gisele that you had as your last set? the vs pics with the blue bra and angel wings? thos eare some of my fav Gisele pics

    Thanks

  10. hi lisa=] how are you?

  11. Yes I can understand that. she is abusy bee. hehe.

    xo

  12. hi twinkle! love all your posts

  13. just wanted to thank you for the beautiful avis you create!!!! your the best girl

    thanks!

    xoxo

  14. Hope you had a lovely Easter!

    beautiful sun goddess poster!! ;)

  15. Happy Friday! TGIF

    :DD have fun

  16. thank you very much. It just felt a little bit empty. hehe.

  17. Also never had an Armani campaign but I don't really consider that big for some reason, lol. but I wouldn't complain either, haha.

    yeah a Chanel fragrance ad or something!

  18. OMG LOVE the new set!!!

    HOTTT

  19. oh yeah, lady fatale made that one for me from max factor ads.

    =]

  20. hey girl just stopping in to say hi. can't wait for some new gi pics!

  21. hi thanks! yes it is ffrom Gisele's Vivara commercial =] here is the link:

  22. thankees babes=]

    xxoxoxox

  23. hey we miss you on lovevsmodels! where'd ya go? :D

    xoxo

  24. thanks dear! I rated u too!

    kisses

  25. thank you hunny, Happy New Year! have a great 2010

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